Hi all,
I’m re-sharing this original blog post, which includes some corrections, clarifications, and updates, noted in Italics.
After speaking with Jesus, Mary, and Taryn, it became evident that I had simplified the details of their meeting, and as a result, it was not accurate.
This could mislead the reader and be taken out of context. I have attempted to rectify this by including more details.
I have also received feedback and reflected more on my own feelings, motivations, and resultant actions, which were out of harmony with Love.
(Edited on 05/09/2025)
As some of you may have heard by now, a wonderful thing has happened.
I have met my soulmate!
Her name is Taryn, (pronounced: Taahrin). (Returned name – not 1st Century name)
She is an exceptionally lovely person, as you will discover when you get the opportunity to meet her.
She has a very gentle and kind heart towards others, which is evident in her presence.
A beautiful gift from God!
Although we met just over a year ago now (we sat right next to each other and introduced ourselves), neither of us clocked the significance in that moment.
She was in a relationship at the time with her partner and 3 children: Toro-3, (from that relationship) & Indyara-10, & Serenity-13 (from a previous marriage).
She lived about 4 hours drive away from here and attended the God’s Way Humility in Practice days on a few occasions, and then desired to journey out here on her own and stay longer to immerse herself in the experience and feel more deeply.
During the next time that she visited, we had a brief chat in passing (at a God’s Way event) and struck up a conversation about an interest that we both shared, and hoped to speak about it further at a more appropriate time.
We still had no idea about who we were to each other at that stage.
I did however notice that I felt character or personality qualities in her that I liked that were not exposed by our brief conversation, yet I didn’t know how I would know that, having no evidence.
I didn’t see her again for another 5 months or so, which aligned with Jesus & Mary being away on last year’s “Living Room Tour”.
In the meantime, she decided to purchase a caravan so that she could journey out here more often and consider moving here permanently, returning in mid-December 2024.
Some months later, at a God’s Way Humility in Practice 3-day event, we were working opposite each other at a cutting table and were able to spend a few hours talking and getting to know each other, and sharing our life experiences.
That was fantastic, because I was praying for an opportunity to get more time with her.
After that interaction, I had a yearning to spend more time with her to get to know more about what her thoughts and feelings were on anything & everything.
Upon reflection, it was intriguing that our first extended conversation occurred whilst assisting in manufacturing bum towels, as our previous conversation was about our common interest in sewage management!
By then, she had moved out to this area and was renting at a property behind mine.
I was unaware that she had also ended the relationship that she was in, even though they still came to events together with the children.
An opportunity came up at a party to get to chat again, a week before Jesus & Mary were about to set off on their overseas trip.
During our conversation, she asked me about any particular strong feelings that I’ve experienced in this incarnation about my life in the first century.
I explained one experience to her, along with some details that included my first meeting with my soulmate from that time.
I discovered later that the experience I was sharing felt familiar to her, but she didn’t reveal anything to me at the time, as she was too embarrassed and overwhelmed.
However, she did share with me that she was questioning the truth about her identity.
By that stage, I was quite sure of who she was, but didn’t want to make any suggestions to ensure she discovered the truth through her own process, when she desired to know it and ask about it from her own inclination.
I suggested that she have a chat with Jesus & Mary if they had some time before they go, which in reply she confirmed she had already arranged to meet with them.
My suggestion was really motivated more by my own fears that “what if I’ve got it wrong” as I have done in the past. Not trusting my feelings.
Really wanting Jesus and Mary to confirm for Taryn, to save me from my own responsibility and consequences of my own shameful and psychologically distressing feelings if I was wrong again, which in hindsight was not fair on them or Taryn.
On the day that Taryn was on her way to meet with Jesus & Mary, we passed each other on the road.
When I was coming home, we passed each other again as she was leaving Jesus & Mary’s, and I was wondering if her world had just changed.
Upon meeting with Jesus and Mary, Taryn explained to me later that she was terrified and reluctant to share her feelings with them because she was too embarrassed and ashamed that her feelings were wrong.
Jesus and Mary made it clear to Taryn that they couldn’t help her unless she was more forthcoming and transparent with them about her feelings.
Once she finally found the courage to share her feelings about me being her soulmate, they asked her why she felt that way.
After sharing more, Jesus and Mary agreed with her feelings. She was shocked to hear this, mostly because it meant that she wasn’t crazy.
She’d spent many years questioning her identity, and now finally, the truth was confirmed.
She explained that this brought some relief; however, along with it were overwhelming feelings of what that truth would mean.
Even though she was relentlessly searching for the truth, she now realised how much she was denying the truth about herself.
There is more background to how Taryn discovered the truth before she was willing to share her feelings with Jesus and Mary; however, perhaps this is something she will personally share another time.
Initially, her feelings had nothing to do with me; it was more about the truth of who she was.
However, it wasn’t until I shared details about my soulmate in the first century that she truly questioned the connection between her own feelings (memories of past experiences) and me, and this only occurred a few days before she met with Jesus and Mary.
Prior to our conversation at the party, Taryn had already arranged to meet with J&M to discuss her feelings about who she really was or whether everything she was feeling was injury-based and spirit-influenced.
It was a very confusing time for her.
And in hindsight, if I had had the courage to just say what I felt above all of my other excuses/fears for not saying it, it may have saved her a lot of distress.
Taryn contacted me the next day, and we caught up for lunch at my place the following day.
Our first re-introduction to each other felt somewhat surreal, awkward, but relieving to be able to speak freely, now that the truth was out.
Neither of us had a physical attraction to each other initially. This is something that has grown.
I feel that she is a closer version of who our soul is than me, which inspires me to come closer to that too.
It’s been 13 years up until now that I have not been in a relationship, and only desiring my next relationship to be with my soulmate.
Jesus & Mary have consistently reminded us to feel about our soulmate and develop a longing for them.
Although my longing has been limited due to holding onto anger, blame and loss issues regarding my soulmate, I still have wondered over the many years things about her. Feelings such as:
Where she might live;
What is her life like;
If she’s happy or otherwise currently;
If she’s close to her family or more independent from them;
Does she have children or not;
If she’s in a relationship and how she feels in that;
If she grew up with any particular beliefs about God;
If she feels that she knows there is something more about herself, but doesn’t understand it;
Does she know about the concept of soulmates;
What age she might be;
How she feels about people;
What she is passionate about;
What was her childhood like;
What are her feelings about love relationships; and
How does she feel about herself, just to mention a few.
Most of the things that I was feeling about my soulmate were close to the mark, all except that I didn’t think that she would have had children. I got that part wrong.
Upon reflection, this exposed some emotional blockages that I have towards children, or my experiences as a child that I’m wanting to avoid which being around children brings up.
I’d like to reiterate Jesus & Mary’s suggestion to anyone who would like to be with their soulmate, to develop a longing to feel the qualities, character and personality of their soulmate.
Not what you’d like them to be for you in an addictive way, but what they are really like; what they feel like, and what their feelings are about all sorts of things.
Many people have the fantasy that meeting their soulmate is going to be like a “happily ever after” scenario, that meeting your soulmate causes love to happen by magic.
I have not found it to be that way, nor ever expected it to be.
There has always been a feeling of deep loss of my soulmate in me (due to the incarnation process – for the 14) before I re-met Taryn.
Meeting my soulmate doesn’t just make that feeling go away by magic.
That sadness is still there, and its presence causes a dampening of the joy of reuniting with my soulmate.
The same principle applies regardless if one has returned or if it’s your first incarnation.
There are still addictions to deal with, false beliefs about Love, and barriers accepting Truths from God about self that still need to be dealt with before bringing the relationship into alignment of how God intended it to be.
It’s not by magic…more so, it happens by a passionate desire to be educated by God about what Love is.
Soulmates are a creation of/by God, not one of our own creations.
Taryn and I are still a work in progress and need to accept the truth of our soul (from God’s perspective) in a heart-based way rather than (current) mind-based concept, to begin to have a true soulmate experience.
In the meantime, we are getting to know each other and discovering our shared interests and passions and what we came here to do.
I feel so much gratitude for God’s Design and having the opportunity to “explore” the other half of our soul, however we may come together.
To grow towards God together.
What an amazing gift God has given all/each of us in his/her design.
Additional gratitude is extended to Jesus for creating the Divine Truth teachings.
This alone drew Taryn’s interest to want to discover more about the teachings, which led her to find God’s Way Humility in Practice days, which led to our finally meeting.
Without the creation of Divine Truth Pty Ltd teachings and the creation of God’s Way Ltd (which Jesus & Mary also created), I don’t know how, or if, Taryn and I would have ever met on this journey.
The motivation of a person’s desire to love, and gift to others, has far-reaching beneficial effects on others that cannot be even dreamed nor fathomed!
The same as it is with gifts from God, whether we are aware of it or not.
I took this photo of a painting when I was in a public library, back in 2011.
The painting struck me as a lovingly energetic embrace by a soulmate couple.
Little did I know at the time that Taryn was working in the building right next door!
Just 1 degree of separation!
It makes you wonder just how close your soulmate may be, and the blocks within us that keep us apart.
My blocks towards Taryn have delayed us meeting sooner. One of the many compensatory effects of that is a deep regret for lost time which can never be replaced, even by the compensation process.
It is true to say that it was Taryn’s desire to find the truth that ultimately led her to me, and the reason why we are together today, more than any part by me.
Due to feedback I’ve received recently, I’m questioning the sincerity of my longing and desire for my soulmate, and it was likely more intellectual than feeling-based.
My true feelings are still in rejection of my true identity; therefore, I am rejecting my soul and thus the other half of me.
The cause of this is something I still need to feel through and release to have the beginnings of (re-connection to) a heart-based soulmate relationship.
On a final note, I’d like to shout out a big thank you to all those that who donate to me.
The generosity of your donations enables me to continue what I love doing with God’s Way.
With sincere thanks to all.
Corny.
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